Priorities

In sacrament today I pulled out my phone and decided to read my past posts on this blog, granted I should have been listening to the talks so carefully prepared by others but let me just say what a good kick in the pants it was for me.  As I was reading my posts I felt as if it was a completely different person writing!  It brought back some incredible experiences and growth in my life but also made me want to cry because I have drifted slowly away from all the growth that I was experiencing.

I feel the same way every time I pick up my Book Of Mormon to read because the one I read is the one I used during my time in Texas and I marked so many insights and thoughts that came to my mind that I am no longer receiving because Iv'e lost that dedication.  Different things have slowly crept up and become more of a priority in my life.  Silly things such as, Netflix, swimming, Netflix, eating, Netflix.  I constantly think to myself how amazing it felt when I had my priorities straight.  Why isn't that enough to make me want to hurry up and get back on track?  I constantly ask myself that and unfortunately I am the only one to blame.

" We also need priorities.  Our priorities determine what we seek in life."  Dallin H Oaks. 

 Ok first of all Netflix is not my first priority but sadly I do spend A LOT of my down town watching silly tv shows.  What does that say about what I seek in life?  Sure I think it would be awesome to be a surgeon on Greys Anatomy but that is obviously so unrealistic. I don't think I have to completely cut Netflix out of my life but it definitely shouldn't even be on my priority list.  There are so many other things I could be doing that could help me advance on earth and eventually eternal life.

"The choices you make will make all of the difference in what you want to achieve."  Elder Perry

Honestly besides work It's hard to think of anything I spend my time doing that would help me achieve in any aspect of life.  I will be going to school in the fall so that will definitely get me on a path to achieving something.  Spiritually though, I need a good kick in the butt to get me back on the right path and figure out exactly what I need to be doing to help me achieve what I want and who I want to be.

How is it so easy to get distracted when you've had incredible spiritual experience?  

Why is it so hard to get back on that path when you can so vividly remember how you felt?

I don't think I will ever know the answers to those questions and if someone does, please share. :)

Anyway on a happier note (and a completely different topic) I've been a little frustrated lately with our calling, teaching the 4 year olds.  They have short attention spans and you can only talk for a minute or so before they get distracted.  I completely understand that but there is this one girl in our class who really reeeeallllyyy has a hard time paying attention for just 2 seconds.  I get so overwhelmed thinking that they aren't understanding or comprehending ANYTHING that I am saying.  I repeat myself over and over and over again in hopes that they will catch on to something.  Well, today in primary that same little girl was covering her ears during singing time, wasn't sure why but as long as she was being reverent I didn't mind.  She quietly leaned over to me and said, "The Holy Ghost whispered to me and say'd " I love you.""  In that small moment I realized they catch on a lot more then I think.  Two weeks ago we talked about the Holy Ghost and how he talks to us.  Maybe she heard him maybe she didn't but just hearing her say that gave me assurance that just maybe they do catch on to what I am saying. :)